musings

Monday and Tuesday it felt like I had done a hard-cord ab workout. Which I kinda did, but not because I was exercising, more like puking six times, most of those six times it took several tries to actually puke. So my stomach was super sore. But I'm over that.

The more I think about it, the more I'd like to have my own place for my last year of college. I have to talk to my dad about it though, because it's significantly more expensive to live alone and while I'm in college he pays for my living and food. But I'm getting increasingly more partial to the idea of running my own place and not having to please anyone but myself, not having to make compromises about certain things that I like and that make me feel more comfortable. I think I'd like it. It would only be for one school year which would be fine because after college I'll be looking forward to getting a job and settling down-ish and preparing to take care of my own family eventually. Anyway, I don't need to go into this again, I just did a few days ago.

About that settling down.....I think I'm starting to get the vaguest trace of wanting to be done with school. Well, I'm in between, leaning more toward the still liking school phase. Really, I'm still enjoying identifying myself as a college student out on her own. But the future, although ever so blurry, is starting to paint itself in front of me. Not all the answers to my questions are unfolding and I definitely do not know what I want to do career-wise. I really don't know what I'll do with my degree yet...perhaps I'll figure it out last minute, or maybe it'll take a while to figure it out and I'll work some less-steady job to get started.