Ok. I lied.

One minute later and I'm posting something else. The author of another blog I follow does this post every week called "Truthful Tuesday", in which she lists random statements of "truth". Even though it's not Tuesday now, I feel like doing the same.

Truthful Friday!

1. I should be grading outlines and speeches right now.

2. On that note, I really need to get with it and be a motivated, on-top-of-it grad student. No more of this undergraduate procrastination, bs-ing work anymore. However, I'm still trying to get into a groove of this new career. Perhaps making a very detailed schedule for myself for the next few weeks will get me going.

3. I know I need to break out of my comfort zone. Grad school and being a TA has already helped a lot, but I still need work. I'm just naturally introverted.

4. I had a "must break out of comfort zone" moment today. I was at the first Communication Studies Graduate Student Association (CSGSA) meeting today, and we were to elect officials. How it worked was that people just shouted out nominations for those that they thought would be good in the positions. Once we got to Secretary, someone nominated me, and other people seconded it. At first I freaked out a bit on the inside, thinking "I do not want to do this, not my thing! I can't!", because of the comfort zone thing. But then I got to thinking "This would be good for me. It will force me to make connections with people and organize something big and just overall break out of my shell a bit". So then I was hoping to be voted for. However, someone else won the election (and she will be great), but I was a bit let down. It was strange, I went from being very hesitant and considering declining the nomination one minute, to being sad that I didn't get it the next. Oh well, I still plan on being involved in the CSGSA as it will be good for me nonetheless.

5. I feel like a total loser right now. Thankfully it's Jake's last 3-11:30 PM shift for a while (maybe forever), because the past few weeks, when I'm not at school or work I've been alone in my apartment until he gets off. It's not as bad during the week, but Friday night, really?

6. Drawing from #5, another reason I need to break through my comfort zone is because I am one of those people who waits for things to happen, or for other people to ask me to do something, rather than making something happen. I whine and use the excuse that I have very few friends here. Yes, most friends are elsewhere now, but I'm starting to really enjoy the company of my colleagues so I can't use that excuse anymore.

7. I crave hamburgers A LOT. I like a lot of healthy food too, but burgers are the things I crave most often. Like right now. And two nights ago. And Monday after backpacking. I don't always give in to it, but I just might tonight...

8. I am very very eagerly awaiting my first paycheck from this job. I have a few big things to pay off right now, including part of tuition, and pay my dad back for my TV and rent (he enrolled his Chase rewards card for automatic payment at my apartment, because he really wants the points for a vacation for my mom and him). I probably won't have a lot leftover after my first paycheck.

9. I have a good relationship with my future mother-in-law right now, but I'm so scared of it worsening either during the wedding planning process or after Jake and I are married! I've heard that it happens often! Probably because there is conflict of opinions during wedding planning or something else.
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10. I was a hypochondriac for about a year, starting summer 08. It started with a really dumb mistake when I was cleaning the old house for the family I babysat for so that they could put it on the market, and I cleaned up an insanely disgusting amount of mouse droppings from their pantry area (they were a very dirty family), and I was not careful about it at all. In fact, I shouldn't have cleaned it myself. For the next few weeks, I was so terrified that I had caught hantavirus and from then on, for about year, I always thought my headaches were something serious, or that a flutter in my chest meant I had arrythmia, or because I didn't feel good I had caught some terrible disease. I think eventually I just started telling myself to not think that way, that I was fine, and I gradually got over it. No counseling necessary :)

So now I've let you in on some deep dark secrets (not really)! This can be fun, if you care to join :)

PS Please don't use my truths against me :P